My strength comes from
Loneliness,
From times that redefine
The lines across
My palms
A straight path was never
Mine to follow,
The forks that lie ahead of
Me
Align with the sky,
Ending at the mouth
Of the horizon
I was born in an hour of
Despair
Bad omens seldom stand
A chance against me,
I’m the curse of
Destruction
The closer you get
The harder you bleed
I’m a writer,
Sometimes devoid of
Words
I’m a poet,
Sometimes at a loss for
Rhymes
I’m a human,
Sometimes deceptively
Flawless.
-Nameera.
I’ve been having trouble sleeping at night recently. This poem is a result of a myriad of bottled emotions that have been swelling in the back of my head. Every stanza speaks of a different phase in my life that permanently broke some parts of me or made me a stronger human being. If you’re going through a tough situation, remember that it’s more of an opportunity to redefine yourself rather than retiring with the belief that pain is the end. It’s only a beginning, all you’ve to do is choose your path.
Beautiful piece 🙂
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Thanks a lot!
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Lend me some tips to stay awake at nights please.😊
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Firstly, fall sick.
Secondly, think, think & think.
Viola! You’re a night owl now.
(You don’t have to follow the first step, the second one will suffice as well) 😁👍
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So you’re sick now?
I think and think and eventually fall asleep.😑
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Yeah, we all do.
I was, not anymore.
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We all do. Not you.
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Oh, didn’t know that! Thanks for telling me. 😔
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Ahem!! Why that sad face, kiddo??
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Sarcastic face. 😋
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Allah! Ye ladki! 😑
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Kya 😂
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Kuch nhi. Vampire.😒
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Wese aaj aap kaise itni raat ko active ho? 😏
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Aadhi neend me se utha, ab so nhi paara.😫
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Awe, close your eyes & stare into the black abyss in front you, neend ajayegi. Better yet, listen to The xx, that’s what I do when I can’t sleep (Pls don’t judge me lmao)
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The xx? Kya toh bhi?🤣
The abyss hates me.
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Listen to sunset by The XX (which is a band I think) 😁
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Xx ka intro suna.
Ting ting tung tung
I hate you now🤣🤣
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Why 😂😂😂 What I do??
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You suggest, I listen
I couldn’t sleep then
I won’t sleep now
😑
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Arre, intro sunne ko kisne bola tha? 😂
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Sunset bhi suna re!
My sleep has now set, it refused to rise again. Waise aise gaane sunti ho neend aane? 🤣
Antique ho tum antique!
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Listen to crystallized by them, it’s much better 😂😂😂 Haan na, aati hai neend sunke.
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Hit the road, Nameera
And don’t come back
No more, no more
No more, no more!
🤣🤣
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Oh please, ek toh I’m helping you upar sai baatein bhi suno mai? 😂
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Aaye bade help karne!
Chaupat hogayi neend.
Wapis lao.
(Xx mat bolo please 😑)
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Hm okay then listen to ‘A little death’ by The Neighbourhood. It might work. 👍
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Jazakallah 😒
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😂😂😂 Sunye toh aap!
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Chalra abhi!
Kaise neend aati aapko ye sunkar?
Maine bhula ke vampires sote hi nhi aur me jaa jaake usii se suggestions lera.😶
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Haha!
Ab samjhe na aap humari situation 😂😂😂
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Matlab? Janbujkar suggest karre???
Ab Kya karu me aapka!😫😫😫😫
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Aur Kya!
Muahahaha😂
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Tumko na!😡
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Kya mujhko? Itne ache songs bataye maine! You should be thankful to me. 😂
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Kyu aaye ab??🤣
Beech beech me gayab kaise hore aap?
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I keep getting busy. There are so many people here. Life isn’t what it used to be. 😏
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Ahhan?? Aisa Kya?
I’m listening.
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I’ve like a huge extended family & cousins. So, we watch horror movies almost every night! 😁 And I’m still waiting for my adhaar card to arrive ugh. Also I’ve to apply to colleges in a day or two. Plus I’m waiting for the wingword poetry result to come out tonight at 10pm. So, yep. Been preoccupied lately, marriages & stuff to attend as well.
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My my!!
Nameera! Aadhar card chahiye???🤣
Even I have many cousins. We don’t meet often because we’re all busy working now. Waise course kaunsa dekhrhi ho?
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ACCA with Bcom/BBA.
Haan na,chahiye!
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Bcom? BBA??
BBA is only good when done in a business school. B.Com waale bohot hogaye.
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I wanna do ACCA. The only course I’m getting along with it is Bcom or BBA. I know there are tons of BBA/Bcom graduates but I see no other option.
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Then try for admission in a business school. Bachelor’s degree from a bschool carries more weight. I’m a victim of choice here.
Another CA aspirant!!
Times are changing.😜
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Okay so like I’m planning to apply at Christ and I’m totally freaked out but I feel that I really need to give it a shot. They offer ACCA along with BBA so yeah. The last option(and my backup) is Manipal (Jaipur) where they offer it with Bcom. So yep.
Oh, what made you choose CA? Weren’t you from Science background?
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I didn’t do CA, milady.
It’s a different story for another day. 😊
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You wanted to?
Wait, didn’t you major in Physics or something? Batao na abhi.
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No
I dropped out of engineering.
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Oh yes, i think you wrote a post about it. Ah well, it’s never too late to realize what you’re meant to do.
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Well that’s not the case either.
What I wanted is not what I am now, victim of choice, remember?
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Hm. We all are victims of choice at the end of the day.
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The wise one speaks.😊
There has to be necessary stupidity to tell people what’s stupid. I’m that stupid.😛
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Kabhi kabaar I honestly don’t even get what you’re saying. Comment karne ke baad samajh aata hai arre acha ye tha iska matlab lol. 😂
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Acha? Batao Kya samjhe aap?🤣
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Kuch nahi 😂
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Pata tha🤣
You’re predictable at times.
I’ll work on my English so you can understand what I’m saying. I’m trying you know?
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Shut up k. You’ve no idea how hard I try to be unpredictable😂. Puri mehnat pe paani mat phero!
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Try karna hi kyu?
Ho na unpredictable!
Ab ye wali reply Maine expect nhi ki. 😜
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Oo das kewl 😂😂😂 See I’m unpredictable! I knew it.
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Allah! Ye lingo!
Maaro mat re subah subah!🤣
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Sorry man! I hate when people type like that. AnD Lyk DiS 😂😂😂 Gives me a heAdaChE.
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Toh mujhe Dena zaruri?😑
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Acha sorry! 😂 I couldn’t help it. Aap ko pareshan karne mai maza aata hai.
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I heyt yuh😡
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Pliss dnt h8 meh. 😂
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Ah cant help it, sistah!
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Okay, h8 meh den!
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Too late!
All my hate evaporated.
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Yayayayay.👍
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I have trouble sleeping occasionally when I’m overwhelmed. Let’s just say I’m not a fan of those nights. I hope you sleep well.
And the poem needless to say is a masterpiece and relatable. 🙂
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Thank you so much for your time & lovely feedback, it means a lot to me!
Ah well, who doesn’t like a good night’s sleep? Unfortunately, sometimes circumstances begin to take control of our routine as well. (:
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Best remedy to sleep, shove your mobile, dump it somewhere. Actually it can be very detrimental insomnia is a major cause for diabetes etc, its a biological cycle where body is metabolically active, synthesizing harmones etc. All the problems are the outcomes of one’s deed, the harvest you cut is from the seeds you sow . You need to reboot your lifestyle. Go to bed at 11 no matter what and wake up at four.
Read Ayatul kursi and the Last three chapters three times before sleeping, its serious do it like you are taking medicine.
May you be guided ameen.
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Thanks a lot for being a constant reminder of the straight path, I don’t know what I’d do without them! Like, honestly your presence is what truly completes the blogosphere for me. And as for sleeplessness, well I’m pretty sure I’m not an insomniac; it’s just the transition of moving from one country to another that’s keeping me awake at night. To add to that, I fell terribly sick after moving here. Alhamdulillah everything’s fine now. Oh & just in case you didn’t notice, I’ve been active on WP since yesterday. I did shove aside my phone for a really long time. (:
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Oh, Delhi atmosphere is very polluted nowadays, smog you know , i mean i have been living in delhi for almost three years now, I am quite adapted but it’s gonna be lil difficult you know.
You need to be a vigilante here really lol, whenever I spot a mosquito here I get on my sniping mode, one bite can transform anyone to be a probable dengue patient.
Because there is so much of rush here being the capital city, there are lot of exchange of microbes, esp Delhi being the Centre for quality hospital and medical facilities, Top class surgeons and doctors here.
Yeah i did notice your absence and your likes were missing too, 😁😁😁for myself too i give not more than half an hour to wp (trying to be more routined nowadays May Allah guide me please) , just to read my favourite ones. You being one obviously.
For some reasons my blog is on private mode, if you want to read my posts you need to ask for an access and I will confirm God willing.
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Oh I see!
I’m glad I’m not in Delhi, there’s no way one can get avoid getting sick in Delhi’s pollution. We were there for only a day & I was already sick due to smoke & dust. When I got to Jaipur, I couldn’t help but devour rasmalai which led to food poisoning 😀 The problem was that we ordered it online.
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Oh, That’s a good trade off for a rasmalai, i think you will just pass 😂.
Well, I hope you are doing good now.
And wish you all the best for your future endeavors. 👍👍👍. 😁😁
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Haha it sure was!
I’m doing great now, Alhamdulillah. 🌸
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👍, MashaAllah.
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Lovely poem
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Thank you so much, means a lot coming from you! Judging from your recent write-ups, I can only say that you keep getting better every time I read your poetry. Your words never disappoint me, they’re always a treat to the reader’s heart & soul. 💜
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Awwwwwwwww thank you 😊
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I can empathise! And you are spot on, pain definitely is not the end. It’s rather the end of the tumultuous quiver inside our heads, a means for the body and soul towards serenity and calm. Sleeplessness, well happens to me all the time and I keep away from the phone. 😁
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It’s a good thing that you keep away from the phone at night. Even I try to go back to sleep and in the end, my thoughts merge into sleep in no time. To this day, I still don’t know how to simply close my eyes & sleep. People who have the ability to control the flow of their thoughts at night are so lucky!😁
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I agree. I could at one point just close my eyes and doze off and now, some night, I toss and turn, thinking, rethinking, questioning, trying hard to get the thoughts out of my mind but they keep accentuating!
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They never seem to stop flowing and somewhere in the middle of all the introspection, sleep finds its way to me. Though I’m never aware of how it happens, all I know is that I’m awake next morning to the humdrum of life.
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I can completely relate! Sleep catches upon the confused mind and then you are suddenly awake and the muted thoughts take over. But I’m certain they end, they have to. Everything eventually ends.
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Yeah. End is inevitable.
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Straight line not for you, and a poet without rhymes. ❤️❤️such a beautiful read
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Thank you so, very much! Means a lot coming from you. ❤
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It is my absolute pleasure ❤️
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Firstly, fall sick.
Secondly, think, think & think.
Viola! You’re a night owl now.
(You don’t have to follow the first step, the second one will suffice as well) 😁👍
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Your blog is one of the most depressing ones, i’ve read. Grow up a bit mate. There’s much more to life.
with love
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“If you’re going through a tough situation, remember that it’s more of an opportunity to redefine yourself rather than retiring with the belief that pain is the end. It’s only a beginning, all you’ve to do is choose your path.” (An excerpt from the above passage below the poem)
I like to reflect on my past downfalls & share lessons that I’ve learnt along the way. Also I’ve a penchant for gothic literature & dark poetry, as is obvious.
Being depressed, growing up or exploring the ‘much more to life’ aspect are all little bits & pieces of an element that holds utmost significance called, “self-growth” which I’m certain adds a lot more to life than anything else.
I hope you understand that I’m not depressed, this is the only way I know & prefer to reflect upon life. I don’t write about joy, I live it. (:
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well, i guess, you didn’t really read, as to what i wrote. it was, ‘your blog’.
and all that you said is fine and on point.
but well, growing up, are not bits and pieces. it alone has made all the difference. which you ofc, dont realize yet. but you’ll, as and when time comes.
you don’t need to be sad, to grow yourself. you just need the will.
and you being not depressed is fine. but you living your life, happily is something, i won’t really agree w. for i’ve read your words, since months now. the tone is more or less the same. and well, all these words, that you write, they talk to me. and so, you do feel upset. it is inside you. but maybe that’s just me, who well, read you wrong. and i’m not really wrong, when it comes to this. but if you say so. 🙂
i just care for you. i dont like you sad. but like i said, if you say so.
with love
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Once I’ve written down my feelings, I am relieved & this blog happens to be that outlet of mine. And I find nothing wrong with sadness or pain or melancholy. It’s an indelible part of me. I won’t ever grow without it. That doesn’t mean I ignore other aspects of life. My words & life are definitely worlds apart, believe me when I say that not everything you read can provide an insight into the reader’s mind. Human beings are far more complex than that.
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You’re contradicting yourself, Nameera. But i’ll let it be, even tho we still are on our own parallels. Wishing you the best.
with love
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Thank you, I wish the same for you. Take care.
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Just Amazing & so relatable♥️
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Thank you so much!
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Again, I love the way you structure your poems. In this case, the mix of short and slightly longer lines help to focus one’s attention on the most important words. Very well done 🙂
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Thanks a lot Josh, for your feedback & keen observations!
Honestly, all I do is write what’s on my mind as vividly as possible. (:
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Then you do a good job of it 🙂
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I hope you are able to sleep well now.
Judging by the time, if you are in the same timezone as I am (right now), that didn’t happen.
I guess the longest I had been sleepless was like 52 hours (I just realized this is just irrelevant information). Just pointing out that I am a hardcore insomniac. Can you believe I just returned from the coffee shop?(Irrelevant info#2)
So, your post is ah-mazing. Brilliantly written.
Like I said (am requesting), teach me, Sensei ?
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Yeah, I binge movies all night & sleep all day. Half day, not the whole day. Parents won’t let me ugh. Um, I’m queen of irrelevant information so you’ve got absolutely nothing to worry about 😂 Wow. I don’t know how people feel sleepy after having tea or coffee. I never do.
I’ve just moved to India so yes, our times zones are alike.
How do I teach someone who’s already a master at the craft? Tell me? 🙏
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High Five.
Netflix and chips are the reasons for that fat belly and newly forming dark circles. Haha, I totally understand your situation. I stay away from parents, thankfully. 😛
Wait, isn’t coffee supposed to keep people up? I drink so much caffeine that if ever there is a blood donation camp, there will be one brown bag of coffee, believe me.
Oh, welcome to India. I hope your stay until now has been pleasant. 🙂
So, you are speaking to the person in the mirror. Understandable. So, you got the answer from the reflection? 😛
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Totally. Night time is my time. Wait, did I say it makes them sleepy? 😂 I think I did. Nevermind. You know what I meant. Tea or coffee, nothing can take away my sleep. Sometimes, after exams I sleep for like 2 days. But yes, it’s hard to go back to sleep once I’m awake.
Yeah, I’ve fallen sick couple times but attended marriages anyway 😁
Please, stop. 😂 I was talking to you!
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High Five, again. 🙂
Yeah, you did. I don’t know how other people keep telling me how I am not sleeping at nights when they couldn’t stay after 10PM. I am like 10PM is like mid afternoon for me and how can I possibly sleep at that time. 2 days of sleep! I don’t remember the last time I had that long of a sleep.
Oh, I guess that’s the weather change. Hope you are all well now. How were the marriages? Plural? How many did you attend?
I see, you are still in front of the mirror. Shall I give you a little more time? 😛 😂
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Yeah, it was definitely the weather. Three, if I remember accurately. And they were good, so many people & relatives. All in all, it was fun!
I just shattered the non-existent mirror. The shards of glass have dissolved in thin air. 😂✌
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Oh, the weather gets to the most of us.
Wow, three! That’s amazing. That was in the span of how many days/weeks? Glad that you had fun. 🙂
Wait, you forgot the very existent mirror right next to you. 😛 And hey, it’s okay you can talk to yourself, I don’t mind at all, really. 😛
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Yeah, specially at this time of the year.
Yeah, they were spread over a span of two months. Like, we just got to our hometown and Bam, the wedding season had us all caught up this whole time until a week ago.
I hate mirrors now.🙏
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Exactly, I know right?
Oh wow, you must be having fun. Are they over or still left?
No, you don’t. Because there’s you in them. 😛
(I am taking it too far, ain’t I? But I am not going to stop. 😛 )
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Yeah.
They’re all over now.
You definitely are! Let’s see how far you can go before I sleep or my phone’s battery dies 😂
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Oh, what will be the plan, now that the marriages are over.
Don’t you give excuses now. You are not going to sleep and neither is your battery dying. Put the phone on charge and have a cup of coffee. I am just getting started. 😁
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I haven’t planned anything productive yet. Will be applying to few colleges & then join coaching from next month. There might be a family trip or something next month, so yeah.
I’m not! It’s the truth. 😂 But I’ve my laptop so I’ll use it once my phones dies…if I don’t fall asleep that is.
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You still have a plan.
Wait, trip? Where you going? I just realized that was a personal question, so you don’t have to answer, if you don’t want to.
Good. That’s the spirit. Wait, what now? Sleep? Is that even a thing? 😛
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Yeah, sort of.
I’ve no idea. My cousins suggested Nepal. Let’s see what happens.
Yeah, that’s what I do for two continuous days after my exams. 😂
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Wow, Nepal is a great place to visit. Do let me know how you found the place, if you go.
Oh yeah, that! I know nothing of that thing. 😛
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Sure thing!
I’ll definitely post about it here, that’s if it actually happens.
(:
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Great. Looking forward to reading it. 😊
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Yeah. ‘If’ I go, I will!
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Great one as usual!
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I’m really glad to hear that! Thanks for giving it a read. 😊
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I actually liked your work..It so simple but have a lot of depth..Eye numbing stuff.
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Thanks a ton, means a lot to me 😊 I just write as honestly as possible. Writing is my only outlet. (:
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That’s what is most required. Honesty..You are doing great..!
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Indeed. Thanks, once again!
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I love this 😭❤
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Thank youuuu laav ❤❤
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This is amazing!💞
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Thank you so much, Shivani! ❤
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