To The Stranger I Wish I had Never Known

Every time we talk
It’s like I’m pretending
I don’t even remember me
I’m just someone who’s perfect
For you

What does that make me?

I wanted to shave my head
I wanted to tear my clothes
And just run

Because I can’t sacrifice
I don’t want to be yours
I have never been owned
I never will be

I was stuck
But i was with you
And somehow that was
Supposed to bring me peace,
You were supposed to bring me peace.

But you never did.

You loved me a lot more
Than I deserved
You gave me a lot more
Than I could ever handle

I’m sorry now
Even though it won’t
Make much difference

You’re already imagining me
In someone else’s arms
While I’m seeing a happier
Version of you, of us

I’m still a self-centered prick,
You know?
I still think of us
Together
Even after
Unloving
Everything
About you
That I’ve
Learnt
To live
Without.

(I’m also a liar, but you’ve always known that)

-Nameera.

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69 Comments

  1. AQUIB says:

    Wonderfully profound, its very good, well written. God bless.

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  2. michnavs says:

    I felt so much pain here..

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    1. Nameera says:

      There is.
      Thank you so much for giving it a read! ❤

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  3. Brings back memories.
    Good one.

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    1. Nameera says:

      Bitter memories, I’d say.
      Thank you!

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      1. Yes. Bitter ones.
        And sour and sweet.

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      2. Nameera says:

        Bittersweet.

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      3. Bitterly sourish sweet

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      4. Nameera says:

        Haan na, bittersweet hi toh bolenge.

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      5. Nameera says:

        Kyun re? 😊

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      6. Because I said so.😎

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      7. Nameera says:

        Tumhari baat ki itni value kahan 😂 I’m staying.

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      8. Nameera says:

        Yasss😁

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      9. Isme Kya Khushi milti aapko😡

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      10. Nameera says:

        Bohot khushi milti hai. It’s what I’m good at 😎

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      11. Nameera says:

        At hurting people. 😊

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      12. Here I go again
        Fighting against the pain
        Facing you in vain
        Driving me insane

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      13. Nameera says:

        Hold on tight
        There are no rules
        No promises to uphold
        There’s only pain
        And hope to drench
        In an ocean of oblivion.

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      14. Don’t have to hold tight
        Rules, always out of my sight
        Pain is what I gain
        Watch me as I feign

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      15. Nameera says:

        Brace yourself then
        There’s never an end
        To the misery I transcend
        I hope you’ve your ways to mend
        Because destruction is my forte.

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      16. Take me to the end
        I dwell in misery,
        My friend

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      17. Nameera says:

        I dwell in misery too lol. I shall spare you the pain this time, go figure out your shit. 😁

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      18. Nameera says:

        You know talking about your problems with people you’re close to helps as well.

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      19. Well that’s hard.

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      20. Nameera says:

        What’s hard will eventually help you derive a closure, you know.

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      21. Everytime I trust someone, they stab my feelings to death.

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      22. Nameera says:

        Don’t trust and expect nothing. I don’t even know how it works but i suppose that’s what I’ve been trying to do all my life. I honestly think that I’m incapable of changing myself for someone else. I can’t imagine committing myself to some other human being. It’s all impossible in my head.

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      23. You have to have trust if you wanna build something. Be it love or friendship. Trust Karo par saavdhan raho.😊

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      24. Nameera says:

        I either trust too much or I don’t. That’s what i hate about myself.

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      25. I know how it feels, sister. 🙂
        I’m the same.

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      26. Nameera says:

        How do I deal with it? There’s never an in between for me. I’m either completely in or I’m out.

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      27. I’m in search of a solution too.
        Maybe get hurt beyond repair

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      28. Nameera says:

        Yeah, maybe.

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      29. That’s what I’m trying.😊

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      30. Nameera says:

        Is it working?

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      31. Still in the initial stages.
        I thought you understood last night.😁

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      32. Nameera says:

        As a matter of fact I did. I was wondering if it’s going to be of any help in the long run. I suppose you must have a rough idea or something.

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      33. First you stuffer
        Then you hate
        Forget later
        That’s how I function

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      34. Nameera says:

        Hm. I guess that’s how it works then. Cause I do the same shit. Although in my case, it’s self-hate.

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      35. Likewise, sister. Likewise.

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      36. Nameera says:

        Yep. It’s nice talking to you bruh.

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      37. The same here, Nameera.
        Anytime. 🙂

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  4. BeingAlive says:

    Such powerful words of agony Nd longing👍🏻👍🏻

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    1. Nameera says:

      Thank you so much! 💕

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  5. sanikakendhe says:

    Nameera Im in love with you and your words.😉♥️♥️ . Wonderful dear

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    1. Nameera says:

      Thanks a lot dear! ❤

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      1. sanikakendhe says:

        I have nominated you for sunshine award.

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      2. Nameera says:

        Awe, thanks a bunch hun!
        I’ll get down to it asap. ❤

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  6. Wonderful play of words

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  7. parikhitdutta says:

    Now this is amazing Nameera!
    ‘I still think of us
    Together
    Even after
    Unloving
    Everything
    About you’, isn’t that actually still loving the person.

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    1. Nameera says:

      That’s why I wrote this at the end : “(I’m also a liar, but you’ve always known that)”.

      Thank you so much!!

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      1. parikhitdutta says:

        That’s true. We hide the lies behind masks of indifference, but it manages to escape.

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      2. Nameera says:

        It does only if the person knows us well enough. But then again, many of us have mastered the art of pretense so well, it’s next to impossible to figure them out.

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      3. parikhitdutta says:

        Oh we have mastered the art. Is it to protect ourselves from falling prey to the fall again, to preserve ourselves from heart-breakers? I guess so.

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      4. Nameera says:

        Yep. That’s exactly why we pretend. We fear the fall, the emotional consequences of our actions.

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  8. So poignant and beautifully written. 👌🏻

    I hope you’re doing good. 😁

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    1. Nameera says:

      Thank you!
      I’m doing just fine. Moving on has never been difficult for me although bits & pieces of past memories still reside in the back of my mind. (:

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      1. You’re welcome.
        I am glad to hear that.
        I can completely understand that. Been there, which means always there. What might seem easy sometimes pops up ever so often.

        Take Care. 🙂
        I know I am a complete stranger, but if you would ever like to talk, I am just a comment away. 😛

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      2. Nameera says:

        That’s real sweet of you!
        I will, you take care too. And yes, I’ll keep you in mind whenever I need someone to talk to. You can do the same. Sometimes, it’s easier to talk to strangers than people we’ve known for years because strangers know so less about us & hence that leaves no space for judgments (:

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      3. I am glad to hear that and also I have made a mental not to do just that.
        I completely agree with you, sometimes strangers give us the confidence that known people and even friends can’t give.

        Take Care. 😀

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